2016 is Challenging

It’s been three months since my mom died, and since my last blog post. I’ve wanted to sit down and write, but I just haven’t been feeling it. Back in the fall I was totally motivated about getting things started and really becoming a writer.

Then January happened, and she was gone.

2016 has been a challenging year. I had flirted with the idea of quitting my day job, I had taken on more trivia shows to host my night job. We have still been climbing out of the self-inflicted financial ruin from 6 years ago.

The 1.5 year old has been extremely difficult. The 5 year old is about to start private school. My mother-in-law has been living with us while she goes through a tough patch. We bought baby goats for our back yard, only to find out our landlord is moving back to the country. We have to sell the goats that my daughters have grown fond of, and move.

I’ve been trying to clean up our credit, disputing the inaccuracies on our report, and pay the people we owe. My day job has tasked me with redesigning their website, and we are getting ready to work six days a week to move into our new headquarters.

We had discussed leaving the kids and going on a weekend trip with some friends, but now that seems impossible. I’m missing a trivia tournament because of life.

I’ve cracked a tooth, and have another that needs a root canal.

My wife got bit by the dog in a bizarre accident.

It’s been a really challenging year.

We all have them of course. And Lord knows that there are people going through tougher times that I am. I mistakenly set my clock for 45 minutes earlier than normal last night. As I got up and left the house, I realized I had an entire hour to myself. I went to the local park and walked around the pathway.

I wish I could tell you that the exercise gave me some sort of euphoria that melted away the stress, the anxiety, the anger, and the sadness that I have been dealing with. But not today.

I have parts of me that want to quit everything.

But I go on.

Because that’s all I can do.

It’s been a really challenging year.

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